4.02 Finding Denver

3057Miss Denver Karev
10 Dragon Watch
Mae Simlong

Wednesday, July 8, 3057

Dear Liliya,

I didn’t think it was possible but China is even more beautiful than I imagined. It’s sad that my Great Grandmother Amerika had such bad memories from such a beautiful place.

I am very thankful to you and Pasha for taking care of little Eugene until I return home. The birth was difficult and left me exhausted, I didn’t know how I could care for my son when I wasn’t even able to look after myself! You are such a good mother, it’s inspiring to watch how natural you are with the babies. I hope Eugene and his cousin, Nikolai, are getting along with each other – they are so lucky to have the opportunity to grow up together. It wasn’t an easy decision to keep my baby knowing that you and Pasha could offer him a better home, a stable environment and a loving family. Up until the moment I held him for the first time I was convinced that he would be better off without me but as soon as I looked into his beautiful eyes I knew I couldn’t give up my own child. Thank you for being so understanding and for supporting my decision. I’m hopeful that this time away will allow me to heal and find the strength I need to be a good mother.

For the first time in years I finally feel like myself again and I’m excited to be stretching my wings, exploring the world. I have already met so many nice people, I’ve even caught myself flirting a few times! But not to worry, I promise to behave myself.

All my love,
Denver_Notera

 

4.01 Pregnant but not Alone

3056Miss Denver Karev
2 Wickliffe Drive
Willow Bay, Saint Cloud

Friday, May 30, 3056

Dear Liliya,

Thank you for visiting me last week, it was so nice to see you and Pasha. As painful as it was, I still support your decision to put my mother into the home. I agree with both of you; she needs the kind of help that none of us is able to give her.

I can’t describe how much I miss your kind words, your good advice, your company. Even though Pasha and I seem to have nothing in common I’m grateful to him for making you a part of our family. You have truly become the sister I’ve always wished for.

While life at the “retreat” is comfortable and the other young mothers-to-be are nice, I am lonely. I am supposed to be excited for the birth of my child but I feel nothing but despair and heartbreak. I wasn’t prepared for the reaction I got when I told Niklaus that I was pregnant. Instead of joy and encouragement, he fell silent and refused to discuss our future together. And so here I am, alone, waiting to welcome this unwelcome member into our family.

Of course, news of your pregnancy couldn’t have come at a better time! Knowing that you and I can share this experience, even if we’re not in the same house together, keeps me going. I am thinking long and hard about your offer to bring up my child as your own, as a brother or sister to your little one. Are you sure Pasha is okay with the idea? During your visit it was obvious how happy you were – you were positively glowing! In contrast, when I looked into the mirror this morning I could only see the shadow of my former self, now despondent and filled with worry. You and Pasha will make wonderful parents, I have no doubt. How can I possibly be a mother when I’ve only just begun to explore the great, wide world? I still want to see and do so much, I don’t know if I’m ready to give everything up for this child. Perhaps I would feel differently if Niklaus showed any interest in being a father and sharing this burden of responsibility. What kind of life will I have as a single mother in Saint Cloud?

I will keep you all in my prayers and I promise to give you my answer soon.

All my love,
Denver_Notera

3.20 Guilty?

Dr. Chelsea Karev
2 Fairfield Drive
Bradford, Saint Cloud

Monday, March 3, 3056

My dearest Denver,

Forgive me, I can barely manage to write this letter. I am awake but I find myself living in a dark, horrifying nightmare. It’s Mikhail. I was contacted by the Trapani police this morning. He was found dead yesterday in the garden at Aunt Ruth’s house in Santa Vita. They suspect it was an overdose. They began asking all manner of questions about the number of pills found in his possession but Pasha quickly intervened on my behalf and assured them that the prescriptions that I issued were legitimate.

When you announced your pregnancy and plans to have your baby in seclusion, miles away from your family in Saint Cloud, I honestly thought my heart would break. But my disappointment and worry is nothing compared with this. I don’t know how to cope. I cannot eat, I cannot sleep. I cannot even bring myself to speak. I know that Pasha is angry with me and blames me for Mikhail’s death while Liliya is insisting that I admit myself for psychiatric evaluation. It’s clear that I am no longer welcome in this house.

I always believed that knowledge is power but I underestimated the power of guilt.

Oh my dear daughter, what have I done?

All my love,
Mom

3.19 Winter Wedding

3055-2Dr. Chelsea Karev
2 Fairfield Drive
Bradford, Saint Cloud

Saturday, December 8, 3055

Dear Mikhail,

It feels so strange to be back in Saint Cloud, in our old family home. I keep hearing familiar noises, plagued by memories of days gone by. I often walk outside, expecting to see your father shovelling the snow out front. Pasha insisted that we return to Bradford, to the house where you were born, but I must admit that these old walls keep my heart heavy with sadness.

My grief has been further compounded by the return of Liliya. Pasha proposed to her shortly after your father’s death and they decided to have a winter wedding in Saint Cloud. While I’m pleased to see Pasha so happy with his new bride, I desperately wish he could have found someone more suitable to be a doctor’s wife. But Denver disagrees and genuinely adores her sister-in-law. She says that I must give Liliya a chance and I’ve made a promise to myself that I will, if only for Pasha’s sake.

After a brief foray into the world of fashion, Pasha found Denver a job at Sacred Spleen with the hopes of her becoming a nurse. Her short attention span is frustrating but her lack of good judgement is increasingly worrying. She’s been getting very friendly with Dr. Niklaus Whittington, one of Pasha’s colleagues at the hospital. Unfortunately, Dr. Whittington is married. Pasha and I have both warned Denver that this “friendship” is highly inappropriate but she won’t take any notice of our concerns and continues to meet with him frequently.

Sadly, I have even more news of death descending upon our family yet again. Your aunt Carabella’s husband, Everett, passed away last month. My poor sister is also now a grieving widow. I feel so much older since your father passed away and these family deaths make me keenly aware that my time on this earth may be coming to an end. Dear Mikhail, won’t you please visit us in Saint Cloud? It would be so nice to see your face again and perhaps you could talk some sense into your sister.

I hope you are well, we miss you.

All my love,
Mom

3.18 His Last Wish

3055
Dr. Chelsea Karev
Manoir Moelleux
320 rue de la Knott
Brome-Lunaire, Québec

Sunday, November 11, 3055

Dear Mikhail,

Oh my dearest son, it seems our family is surrounded by sadness and death. I realize that your sister has already informed you of your father’s passing but it’s important that you know how much he loved you. While it’s true that you two were never able to see eye to eye, I always hoped that you could repair the relationship with your father. It breaks my heart to know that he died without your love and support. But you are his first-born son and no matter what troubled waters have run through this family, he never stopped worrying about you and he never stopped loving you. You deserve to know at least that much about the man who gave you your life.

Of course we were devastated to hear about Aunt Ruth’s death, I know that must have been very difficult for you. I can’t sleep at night, worried how you will cope in a foreign country without her help. She was a sister and a friend to me and I will miss her deeply.

We all hope you continue with your current book, I see great things ahead for you, dear Mikahil. Perhaps you may finally meet a nice girl in Trapani and discover the real meaning of love and family. I’ve enclosed an extra prescription for your “perfect pills” – please remember what we discussed and use the appropriate caution when taking them.

In a strange twist of fate, Pasha has been transferred to the hospital in Saint Cloud so we’ll be moving next month. It will be sad to leave Brome-Lunaire but there is some comfort in going back to the place where I met my loving husband so many years ago. I’ll send you our new address just as soon as we confirm it. According to the instructions in your father’s will, it was his last wish to have ownership of the house transfer to your brother. I know this must hurt you, but please know that your father had his reasons.

Please take care of yourself and write soon. We miss you.
Mom

 

 

3.17 In Good Hands

3054Dr. Chelsea Karev
Manoir Moelleux
320 rue de la Knott
Brome-Lunaire, Québec

Sunday, August 13, 3054

Dear Ruth,

Ah, the sweet sounds and smells of summer. I can hear the birds outside chirping as I write this, I must admit that I’ve come to love the ritual of sending these letters. It warms my heart to know that you’re reading my words and that Mikhail will soon be reading them with you.  We cannot thank you enough for agreeing to let him stay with you in Santa Vita.

As for Mikhail’s medication, I’ve provided him with enough prescriptions to last him for a while. I will send more as soon as he arrives safely in Trapani.  Again, thank you for taking him under your wing. Life in Brome-Lunaire has been so much more relaxed since Mikhail decided to leave, it’s as though we’ve all finally been able to exhale. We are forever in your debt, dear Ruth.

Pasha was promoted at work a few months ago, he does wear the title of Scientist with such pride. This seems to have caught the attention of the hospital Chief of Staff because he’s just been offered a position as Medical Intern! Niko just couldn’t be more proud, he can’t wait for the day he can call his son “Doctor”.  I suppose some might see Pasha as smug, or even arrogant, at times but he really is a good boy.

Unfortunately, Denver just can’t see the good side of Pasha and their endless bickering continues. We celebrated Denver’s birthday earlier this year and shortly thereafter she found a job as a secretary. It feels like I turned around and suddenly she was a sophisticated, young woman! With all the drama around Mikhail I missed watching her grow up. Much to my disappointment, she’s also begun to form a strong friendship with Liliya, Pasha’s girlfriend. I still don’t like that girl.

Please let me know when Mikhail arrives in Santa Vita, I am praying for you both.

All my love,
Chelsea PW Oblique

3.16 A New Threat

3053Dr. Chelsea Karev
Manoir Moelleux
320 rue de la Knott
Brome-Lunaire, Québec

Thursday, March 10, 3053

Dear Ruth,

God help us, Liliya is back. She graduated from prep school and she’s come home feeling more ambitious than ever. Not ambitious to advance her career or raise a family but ambitious to live in the lap of luxury, from what I can gather. Niko and Pasha are blind to her charms but I can see right through her. She’s staying with Chantel and Serge right now, which is conveniently close enough for her to spend as much time with Pasha as possible.

Meanwhile, I continue to focus on the son who needs me. As long as I continue to prescribe the “perfect pills” for Mikhail he continues to thrive as a writer. He’s about to publish his second novel, based on his experiences visiting the “dark side,” as he calls it. Recently he was approached by the Art Society with a job offer in their Appraisal department. I was both thrilled and relieved when he decided to accept the offer. Finally, Mikhail has a job!

Little brother Pasha has decided to focus his career on science and we couldn’t be more proud. I think Niko would prefer him to follow in his own medical footsteps but when I see him brag to others about his successful son I know he’s bursting with pride. But sometimes true genius doesn’t allow people to see the obvious. If only they could  see how Liliya is manipulating them both! Once again, I find myself awake at night filled with worry for my family. Oh Ruth, will the worry never end?

All my love,
Chelsea PW Oblique

3.15 Almost Perfect

3052

Dr. Chelsea Karev
Manoir Moelleux
320 rue de la Knott
Brome-Lunaire, Québec

Sunday, February 8, 3052

Dear Ruth,

It may not be the perfect solution, but it’s the best I could do. Mikhail’s downward spiral was robbing the rest of this family of any happiness or peace. By Christmas he had been arrested several times and spent more than a few nights in jail. A near overdose landed him in the emergency room and when I saw him lying in that hospital bed I thought my heart would break. Niko finally turned his back on Mikahil and focuses all his attention on Pasha, the son who fills him with pride.

But I just couldn’t do that, I couldn’t bear to watch Mikhail fall any further. So I used all my knowledge, I finally put that precious medical education to good use. It took a lot of time and patience in the lab, but I created a solution for Mikhail. Just two small pills, taken regularly and responsibly, and Mikhail is better. He’s stopped spending his nights at the Tavern, undoubtedly looking for drugs. Instead, he’s glued to the written word, determined to dust off the novel he started writing way back in 3048. The working title is “The Massacre” and Mikhail says it’s so scary he could barely finish it. I have a feeling it may be a best seller! And all it takes is those two small pills …

With all my attention on saving Mikhail, I can’t keep up with Denver’s activities. It seems like every time I talk to her she’s changed her after school activities. Just as she was excelling in newspaper club, she dropped out to join music club. She’s a smart girl, but her short attention span is worrying. I wish she could just stay focused on one thing for a while.

You see, Ruth? I chose to save my family. All it took was knowledge and perseverance and now everything is almost perfect.

All my love,
Chelsea PW Oblique

 

3.14 Protest

3051Dr. Chelsea Karev
Manoir Moelleux
320 rue de la Knott
Brome-Lunaire, Québec

Tuesday, November 18, 3051

Dear Ruth,

The news of Carabella’s death took me by surprise, I’m still reeling from the shock. How could my sister die so young and without any warning? Dear Ruth, life is so very fragile.

And life in Brome-Lunaire is also difficult. We are at our wit’s end with Mikhail. His fragile life is spiralling out of control right in front of our eyes. He spends his nights at the Tavern and his days slouched on the sofa, recovering. He says he needs this “creative space in the fabric of life to explore his art” but Niko just won’t tolerate it any more. I found drugs in Mikhail’s bag yesterday, but I’m too frightened to tell Niko.

Last month Mikhail was involved in a protest, it was in all the newspapers. Niko believes the only reason Mikhail wasn’t arrested is because he wasn’t anywhere to be found. He had been badly beaten, left in a bloody heap by the park. Mikhail claims he was attacked by the police, but without evidence or witnesses his pleas for justice are falling on deaf ears. It’s heartbreaking to watch him fall into such a sad state, I’m desperate to find a solution. I’ve begun researching some experimental treatments to address his worsening depression, I refuse to stand by and do nothing while my son becomes a drug addict!

Pasha and Denver are worried for their older brother and I’m running out of excuses to explain Mikhail’s behaviour to them. Oh Ruth, my family is falling apart and I feel so helpless. In medicine I could always put my faith in finding a cure, however elusive it seemed. But how will I fix this family?

All my love,
Chelsea PW Oblique

3.13 Most Artistic

 

3050Dr. Chelsea Karev
Manoir Moelleux
320 rue de la Knott
Brome-Lunaire, Québec

Saturday, August 31, 3050

Dear Ruth,

Family life continues to keep us busy. Mikhail graduated with the Highest Honour and was also selected as Class Valedictorian because of his outstanding school performance. However, much to Niko’s annoyance Mikhail’s classmates also voted him “Most Artistic”.

Our little Denver is becoming a beautiful, young woman. She and Mikhail are very close and seem to share all manner of secrets. Denver is fond of Pasha as a brother but I think she’s also intimidated by him, as are most of the girls her age. Pasha is so confident, he doesn’t waste any time worrying about emotions or feelings whereas Mikhails seems to be consumed by them.

Poor dear Carabella, I expect you’ve heard about Everett’s illness? It’s sad that my older sister hasn’t made much of an effort to strengthen family ties, but my heart still aches for her as she watches her husband slip away. We know very little about their daughter, Lorelei. Didn’t she visit you in Santa Vita last year?

I must admit that the news about Everett has kept me awake at night. I have to be realistic about our future since Niko is not much younger than Everett.  The children and I need his strong guidance more than ever. How could we cope without him? But I really shouldn’t worry – he’s as active as ever, especially in the bedroom. Dear Ruth, I hope I haven’t made you blush but honestly, he’s getting more frisky with every year!

I hope this letter finds you happy and healthy, dear sister. As the years grow shorter, I miss you more than ever.

All my love,
Chelsea PW Oblique